{"id":3548,"date":"2015-06-06T20:43:09","date_gmt":"2015-06-06T20:43:09","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/nimsay.blackglass.org\/2015\/06\/06\/changes-are-a-comin\/"},"modified":"2015-06-06T20:43:09","modified_gmt":"2015-06-06T20:43:09","slug":"changes-are-a-comin","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/?p=3548","title":{"rendered":"changes-are-a-comin"},"content":{"rendered":"

I say this all the time, but I desperately need to start writing in here again. \u00a0More for my own sanity than anything else.<\/p>\n

For the last few days I’ve been thinking about what’s made me happy and what I would regret if I didn’t at least try. \u00a0The people who know me would say that I have done plenty, and that I should be proud of myself. \u00a0They have me in this set category that I’ve never been comfortable with. \u00a0My reality is not their reality, and I don’t blame or hate them for what they can’t see. \u00a0Rather, I tend to alienate myself more.<\/p>\n

I’m the one who says it’s not good enough.<\/p>\n

I’m the saboteur.<\/p>\n

And as much as I would like to say that this is my manifesto, my promise to myself – it’s not. \u00a0I’m just the reminder that I’m no longer in my 20’s, and this rut has me trapped. \u00a0I’m fearful that I’ll start to regret, and frankly I’m just too young for that.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I say this all the time, but I desperately need to start writing in here again. \u00a0More for my own sanity than anything else. For the last few days I’ve been thinking about what’s made me happy and what I would regret if I didn’t at least try. \u00a0The people who know me would say […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3548","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3548","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3548"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3548\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3548"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3548"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3548"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}