{"id":2740,"date":"2007-04-18T19:29:53","date_gmt":"2007-04-18T19:29:53","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/nimsay.blackglass.org\/2007\/04\/18\/what-if\/"},"modified":"2007-04-18T19:29:53","modified_gmt":"2007-04-18T19:29:53","slug":"what-if","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/?p=2740","title":{"rendered":"what-if"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;ve been having to ask those tough questions.  The what if, and what&#8217;s next if I don&#8217;t pass.  It becomes more of a reality the more each day goes by, and though it&#8217;s not as painful as I imagined, it&#8217;s not something I can ignore.<br \/>\nI know I&#8217;m tired of studying.<br \/>\nI&#8217;m tired of doing nothing.<br \/>\nI can&#8217;t be the work from home personality.  As much as a part of me loves to be anti-social, the other half is just dying to meet new people and be a part of something.  I need to be challenged.  I have to be challenged, stressed, worked in order to feel like I&#8217;m doing my fair share.<br \/>\nI&#8217;ve been writing.  Some of it hasn&#8217;t been great, but the stuff that I&#8217;m proud of the most is my fiction.  A friend suggested I should aim for the e-zines.  I may have to go for it.<br \/>\nIf I don&#8217;t pass I may just end up in California.  There are actual jobs there for people with legal degrees.  Here, I&#8217;m either too qualified, or I don&#8217;t merit an answer.<br \/>\nIf I pass, I&#8217;m going to be an attorney.  I just feel like I&#8217;m on the loser tract, again.  I&#8217;d be so good at it too.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;ve been having to ask those tough questions. The what if, and what&#8217;s next if I don&#8217;t pass. It becomes more of a reality the more each day goes by, and though it&#8217;s not as painful as I imagined, it&#8217;s not something I can ignore. I know I&#8217;m tired of studying. I&#8217;m tired of doing [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2740","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2740","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2740"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2740\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2740"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2740"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2740"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}