{"id":2273,"date":"2004-04-15T21:53:29","date_gmt":"2004-04-15T21:53:29","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/nimsay.blackglass.org\/2004\/04\/15\/in-all-sincerity\/"},"modified":"2004-04-15T21:53:29","modified_gmt":"2004-04-15T21:53:29","slug":"in-all-sincerity","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/?p=2273","title":{"rendered":"in-all-sincerity"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I haven&#8217;t lost interest, its lost interest in me.  These are gloomy days, and it could just be the hormones.  I wish it were the hormones.  It could also be that I get results for one test this week, and in three weeks I get the results for the big one.<br \/>\nI don&#8217;t want to fail again.  The fact of the matter is, I&#8217;m not dreading retaking the damn thing.  The hardest part about it all is the fact that I feel like such a damn failure when I don&#8217;t see my name on that list.  It affects everything, and it feels like I&#8217;m proving all the naysayers, and it&#8217;s the worst feeling in the world.<br \/>\nDamn it, I really should stop being such a coward and email the man at the EEOC too.<br \/>\nI&#8217;m stronger than this, but November kind of knocked me down a few pegs.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I haven&#8217;t lost interest, its lost interest in me. These are gloomy days, and it could just be the hormones. I wish it were the hormones. It could also be that I get results for one test this week, and in three weeks I get the results for the big one. I don&#8217;t want to [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2273","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2273","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2273"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2273\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2273"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2273"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blackglass.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2273"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}