I haven’t lost interest, its lost interest in me. These are gloomy days, and it could just be the hormones. I wish it were the hormones. It could also be that I get results for one test this week, and in three weeks I get the results for the big one.
I don’t want to fail again. The fact of the matter is, I’m not dreading retaking the damn thing. The hardest part about it all is the fact that I feel like such a damn failure when I don’t see my name on that list. It affects everything, and it feels like I’m proving all the naysayers, and it’s the worst feeling in the world.
Damn it, I really should stop being such a coward and email the man at the EEOC too.
I’m stronger than this, but November kind of knocked me down a few pegs.