Ok people, light your candles, cross your fingers and be prepared for the same spiel tomorrow because I need all the good vibes I can get. My friends and I that is, because I’m thinking about them too, but I’m thinking about me too.
It finally hit me in the gut on Friday as I said goodbye to one of my study partners, R. Now there’s no turning back, and I’m absolutely terrified. I get it. Now I know why lawyers have nightmares about taking this exam. The examiners are sadists and I hope they can sleep at night because I sure as hell am not!
Tuesday, Wednsday, Thursday will be utter hell. I’m most terrified about Wednsday, which is the MBE. The 200 multiple choice questions that determine whether I will get my license or not. Six grueling hours spent bent over a piece of paper filing in little circles that may not even be right because the answers are so subtle. I know the law. I dream about it in my sleep. I can’t even have a decent conversation with another human being without bringing up some legal issue sparked by some innocent comment they made. I walk and talk like a lawyer. It’s maddening, yet rather thrilling. But that’s besides the point.
I realize I’m venting, and that I need to vent. I just wish I knew everything would be ok. I’m not looking foward to this at all. I’m looking foward to Tuesday afternoon and the brief trip to San Marcos for clothes because of the nice weight loss I’ve sustained. I could use that time to study for the essays. Or I could stress myself out even more. I could look foward to Thursday afternoon, and the pretty little damage I plan on causing to my liver, which I doubt because it’s like pulling teeth to get me drunk. Not just that, do I really want a hangover on Friday? As a friend would say, after taking the Texas Bar, hell yeah.
I know I’ll get through this barring any further major catastrophes, and I am still firm in my resolution that I will see my section in Austin in November when we get sworn in. I just can’t help being a little nervous and a little scared right now since it’s right around the corner.
And to think, once this is over I’ll finally have time to do things like read. I have Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix waiting for me, as well as the rest of A Clash of Kings. Real books.
It’s almost over. But I’ll still be pleading tomorrow. 😉
Ugh, and there I go again. I just started thinking about the different pleadings in Civil procedure. I need help!!!